What I do:
*Spiritual Life Coach
*Co-Founder of Organic Goddess
*Author of "Balanced Energy, Balanced Life"
*Professional Blogger
Who I Am
As a child I was very sensitive, shy and reserved, although, feeling upset whenever others were hurt, physically or emotionally, I usually kept my feelings to myself. I have always had a very compassionate heart and have never liked seeing any fellow creature suffer - be it human, animal, or even plant! Noisy, competitive atmospheres, have always made me uncomfortable, as well as aggressive, forceful people. I tended to be a loner, preferring the world of my imagination and fantasy, which were very real to me, to escape the outer world when it became too harsh, demanding, or simply uninteresting.
Through my teenage years I had to learn to cultivated my gentle, sensitive spirit, which has given me the ability to have a deep understanding of people, developing a very tolerant, accepting, nonjudgmental approach towards life. I have learned not force my opinion on anyone, intensely disliking conflict. Being somewhat passive, I will wait, watch, observe, feel and know much about people, before I decide whether or not to act. I prefer to let things resolve or work themselves out in their own way, rather than directing or forcing my will upon any given situation. I strive to be giving and forgiving, and have noticed that people in need gravitate to me, sensing my sympathetic nature. It's not unlike me to continue to give to a person longer than I should, even when I realize they are taking advantage of me or becoming overly dependent upon me, overlooking and making excuses for other peoples' weaknesses, as well as my own. Discrimination and self-discipline are not my strong points, though I may be as intelligent as anyone, I do not really have a rational, logical approach toward life.
I live a deeply spiritual life, not in the orthodox sense, but an intuitive sense of the immensity and underlying oneness of all life, which makes so many human aspirations and striving seem rather unimportant. I believe that in order to flourish; peaceful surroundings and periods of quiet solitude are essential for emotional balance and well-being. I allow my feelings, intuition, and heart, not my head, to lead me. I certainly recognize that there is much more to life than can be explained intellectually and categorized into neat little boxes, and have an open, receptive attitude toward such areas as psychic phenomena, telepathy, parapsychology, etc. I am not as structured and rigid in my attitudes as many people are, which enables me to see many different points of view and to accept all of them as valid. When faced with vagueness, uncertainty or confusion, I depend on my flexible and holistic approach to life to get me through.
"Go with the flow" is my motto, moving about the world in a vaguely directionless, gentle manner. I am an artist and a lover of peace; and my open mind and heart can give me a chameleon-like persona. Others are not always sure who they'll meet from one day to the next with me. Although I am often quiet and shy, another day may find me talkative and passionate. Being hugely impressionable and having a dreamy disposition, I project a soft-hearted personality, seeing the world the way I want to see it at any given time.
I am resistant to any kind of labeling--my character is changeable, and I don't want to be pinned down or pegged in any way. My restless, searching nature cannot be happy with any one way of living or being, avoiding cold, hard facts and harsh realities like the plague. I don't have a decisive plan for tomorrow or even today, preferring to keep things open. Since I change my mind frequently enough, and I like to "feel" my way through life, too much organization or structure is very limiting to me. Even though I may walk around with my head in the clouds and my dreaminess is almost always apparent, even when you seem to have my attention, I will always be there to fill in the gaps wherever I am needed.
My partner in life must be stable and reliable. One who keeps me on my toes, and that I can pass off the little details and reality checks on to. He must be a practical, realistic partner, who does not tie me down and allows me to be who I am, not what the world thinks I should be. It takes a very strong, self-assured person to be my partner in life.
The symbol for my rising sign is two fishes, bound together but moving in opposite directions. These fish represent my soul nature and my form nature. I have a form nature in order to experience the growth of my soul, yet the two can seem to struggle against each other. I find that pursuing my own personal material desires does not resolve this struggle, only deepens it. But, by allowing myself to follow my passion, I am able to pursue both my personal needs and desires, and satisfy my spiritual yearning for significance.
How do I accomplish this balance? By focusing first, on my instinctual nature, knowing that I usually have a feeling about what to do in any situation, and by not giving into the tendency to listen to other people instead of paying attention to my inner self. Another way I allow this inner voice its say is to take time each day to isolate myself, listen to the sound of water and focus my mind on my breathe, letting my inner voice be heard.
On this physical plane I am drawn to being a Spiritual Guide - my psychic senses perceive a lot that other people overlook. I listen deeply, and find that my role is that of mediator between the seen and unseen worlds. As I have developed these skills, I have found that I am no longer just operating from the instinctual level, but now I also use my intellect to discern on both planes and combine them into a coherent whole from the information I gather. I have the ability to sympathize with the difficulties of others, and I can combine their feelings and motivations into a coherent whole that I can use to help them realize who they TRULY are.
